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4:44am and 30 seconds
Omg what time is it... its still dark... hmm I can sleep a little longer right?
4:45
Alarm rings loudly under the pillow
Damn I had to be cheated out of at least 30 second... where the hell is that snooze button?
Shuts off alarm
hahahah 4:46 my big black ass its too early to be getting up and going to somebody's gym
falls asleep
4:55 and 45seconds
Big black ass is right!
Me: (Snaps awake)Who said that?
I saaaaaaaaid Big black ass is right.
Me: Shut up!!! (I hate it when the voices in my head wake me up) I'll get up when the alarm rings
Alarm: Rings loudly under pillow
Me: !!!!!!Shit!!!!!
Betta get that lazy ass out of bed and down to the gym before it gets any bigger
Me: Jesu Cristo!!!
What the hell do you want with him?
Me: (silence)
Look lazy ass bitch are we going to have to go though this every morning or what?
Me: you know name calling and abuse is not necessary
Well obviously it is cause your acting like a punk bitch... don't tell me your about to pussy out.
Me: Look I went to the gym yesterday I can miss a day.
yeah umm did you really?
Me: Well the day before that
Nigress please I know you not gonna lay there and lie to yourself
Me: .... last week?
Get on the scale
Me: I don't wanna
Get on the damn scale!!!!!!
Crawls out of bed, trips over Terick's shoes, knocks over a cup of water while trying to find the light, initially blinded, steps on scale, Bends over really close to see the numbers... falls off
try your glasses Eienstein
Finds glasses, steps on scale
Me: Oh shit
More like bullshit
Me: 10 pounds
10 mfing pounds
Me: 10 pounds
cue tight feeling in chest, downward turn of left and right corners of the lips, elevated levels of blinking that eventually leads to tears.
(disgusted) oh no you don't you did this to yourself don't even start crying about it
Me: But all my hard work?!
yeah and a week hiatus from the gym and all that junk food, ice-cream, wonderbread milkshakes, m&ms
Me: alright alright
onion rings, french fries, missed medication, pie, donuts...
Me: Would you shut up already....I really need a hug
You really need to get that ass to the gym; you really need to eat correctly... before what you really will be needing is a pine wood box
Me: okay (sniffling) you don't have to be so mean about it.
Oh I'm sorry I forgot that you wanted to be cremated.
Me: Alright im going !!!!(still sniffling)
(silence)
Me: hello?
(silence)
Me: hello?
So at 5:30am I was at the gym back in the saddle, or on the cart er horse... whatever
today I broke my personal record... I managed one hour and decreased the time it took me to do a mile... I managed to get in 3.2 miles total. I made it home in time to start a veggie stew in my crock pot before work
I also put in another 45mins at lunch making my total time one-hour and 45 just 15 minutes under my 2 hour daily goal.
The voices in my head are appeased
accept for one incident involving a orange cranberry muffin that almost left me in tears.