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I went to my first OA meeting... it was weird I felt hopeful that was Sunday night but by tonight I am falling to peices again... breaking apart and weak... I feel crazy like me life is spiraling out of control and I am floating in this ocean this dark uneasy sea trying to be calm... trying not to scream
trying not to be afraid
but I am
