Change

Things are changing
and im stuck at this crossroads with everything in life it seems
well not everything but the major things
Im at a multiple crossroad
I'm scared because i know that every step I take
or don't take
will lead me in a certain direction for quite some time.
im tired
im depressed
but more than that im mad as hell
at more than just myself
Looking back on the past does not do anything
I know that
but it's a different thing to live that philosophy.
I can't hide
I cant run away
I'm not going to punk out
But I can feel it
war
within
because right not my mind, my soul ,
my being is in a state is disease
I can hear the voices telling me defeat
horrible things and nightmares
and I can either accept it
or do something about it