I don't expect anything... I don't expect anything to change when I leave

 

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I thought I had gotten past it… that I wasn’t going to cry about it again.  But I heard this song and I was there

 

On that morning. 
I am so emotional. 
I am so searching for a sign. 
I am so wanting to stay.

I come into the room
lean over the bed and
kiss your forehead.

You blink the way you normally do in the mornings ...
with wide white unfocused eyes
brows furrowing.

You stretch your hands above your head
Hitt the wall behind you
you smile up at me.

You say good morning
I say good morning
even though I mouth goodbye

You say "I'm sleeping beauty"
and I say "You certainly are"

 

You get up and start your computer
You don’t see me look back at you
You don’t see the tears in my eyes

 

You don’t seem to notice
That this isn’t just another Saturday
That I’m not coming back today
You didn’t ask me to stay

 

It’s quiet

 

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And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything to change when I leave
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