Coffee and Chocolate are not part of this nutritious breakfast.

I've got some bad habits. Some of them are only slightly bad. Like laughing at inappropriate moments, snapping pictures of people's faces when they fall down before asking if they need any help up, making demon faces at little children and cursing loudly in public… libraries. Those things (unless we are taken over by the right wing fundamentalist) won't kill me. But I do have a few habits that just might do the trick. No not drugs or alcohol or even fast driving. But it is an addiction.

This addiction is to food… bad food… the stuff that will kill you food. It used to be really bad. I would sneak off to get a fix of french-fries. I used to get the shakes when I passed by a burger joint. Damn you Fast Food and what you have done to the Nation!!! I even went to OA… like Alcoholics Anonymous except for Over Eaters. What a group that was.

"Ummm….hello my name is Irene and I am an obsessive compulsive over eater… it has been 2 days since my last big mac binge fest and I am very happy to be here." I would leave those meetings so depressed that I would have to get a fix on the way home… so yeah didn't work for me. But I realized that I had a problem and I found my own course to fix it. I went through with drawl something awful I womaned up and got over that…. Scared Terick though….

At my current job I have easy, don't even have to get up from my seat, access to two of my biggest addictions. Coffee and Chocolate are not part of a nutritious breakfast especially if you are pre-diabetic. Yes damn't I said it. Pre mutha fuckin diabetic!!!! This is something that I have known for six months about. This is something that I am embarrassed about., Something that I try not to think about. But just because you don't want to think about something does not mean it goes away trust me it does not work for my waistline or the war in Iraq.

So why am I airing out this dirty laundry? Because I need help. If you see me at some party or out somewhere and we are eating and I order any of the following things:
White breads or white pasta or rice ... anything white that is not an egg
Processed food of any kind
Dessert
Soda or sweet drinks

You have my complete and total permission to bitch slap me… or at the very least remind me about how much I love my left foot.

Ask me… so how is that exercise thing going, how's your healthly life style change thing?
To some of you this may sound like a cry for help
And you would be correct….
Damn skippy it is.
No shame in my game.
Some battles you can fight on your own… and even though I am the only one that can win it… the only one on the front line. I need my friends as reinforcement.
Luv yall
Peace (but not out yet)