Pissed Off

I'm so fucking mad

I will not even say what I am mad about
but let me tell you that I am so fucking out of mind pissed off
I mean what the fricking hell


am I suppose to be calm and quiet and not even raise my voice about this
am I suppose to let it sit inside and fester and rot
am I suppose to just let it ride while I punch these keys harder and faster
am I suppose to just beat it our on this keyboard until I am calm


it is too damn late at night for this shit
I have come too far and done too much
for it to slip
fuck it
I can do it
I have come to far
and it is not going to slip
Im not going to slip



I mean I always tell myself that I have to do this
but I was not really ready to accept the consequences
of what I am no prepared to do


it means hurting
it means being uncomfortable
it means change
it means an ending
it means a beginging


hahahahahahahahahahahaha



yes I understand now... I really think I am ready to make the sacrafice that I was not prepared to make years ago