the c-word

I have uncurled from my fetal

I no longer want to rip out my uterus

The pain has worn off but now I am thinking way too much about why I had the pain in the first place.  Just waiting for the results have got me all emotional and freaked out. I can't even say the word cancer out loud.  I'm all like "I really don't think I have ... you know... the c-word" 

It's like its flipping Voldemort or something.   

Like saying it will make it more real and not saying it will make it disappear.

 

On a side note I can not spell Voldemort.  I typed it into google to check my spelling and what I pulled up was hilarious.  I definitely don't want to have that squatting inside of me.